Keep it going, keep it rocking! Should I maybe find something to mutter about or is it acceptable to just mutter about nothing? It might help my motivation to write more if I had a solid thing to comment on...or it might just annoy me and make me not want to write anything. Course, I don't write anything NOW so its not like it would be a great big change!
I want to work out more cuz the gut, she is getting away from me. Literally and figuratively. I don't like the word gut but I think thats why I use it in this context, cuz aurally and visually, its not something that I like. I keep telling myself, once the snow is melted and the water has evaporated, Ill strap on the ol' blades and sashay my wheele'd feet towards a thinner, Adoi wearing, beach lounging, me! The Adoi is probably not how you spell the Vietnamese costume that I am going to have to wear for my wedding this summer. I can't remember being more excited about something since...well since last time I got married and went to Vietnam! I think Ill wear blue...
I have serious doubts about my ability to learn the language but its something that I want so badly to do. I don't understand how my (lack of) motivation seems to hamstring me so often. Do I really not want to do these things? Is it FEAR that keeps me from working hard to accomplish them? I really don't like to think of myself as one of those "Trying is the first step to failing" folks, but I can't think of another reasonable answer for why I don't start. Maybe thats a great goal for me...don't try to do everything that you want to do @ once but instead reward yourself for accomplishing anything for a period of time longer than normal. Work on small goals? Nah, fk it. Go big!
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