I really want to start making bread more (notice a theme here of the "i really want..." variety?) I don't need to make bread in the shape of crustations but crusty bread would be prefered. I am planning on starting to make some good pizza in the near future but, due to some serious recent failiaers, I feel like I need to practice a bit. Not really sure what I am going to do w/a ton of pizza dough...make bread w/it I suppose? My whole family is quite good @ baking w/my dads ma topping the pile. Of dough. *sigh* Its harder than I expected it to be but part of that might be that I refuse to use a recipe. Maybe if I started doing that, things would turn out better for me. Actually, now that I look @ that crab more, it might be fun to make some crab bread like that and stuff it w/crab! Yeah yeah! Anh and I boiled some crabs the other day and then spend 30 mintues picking them apart to make soup w/. They were delicious! I am really excited to go to VN and eat seafood for a few weeks tho...nothing here really compares.

Wow...that was a really boring post...

keep it coming!

Keep it going, keep it rocking! Should I maybe find something to mutter about or is it acceptable to just mutter about nothing? It might help my motivation to write more if I had a solid thing to comment on...or it might just annoy me and make me not want to write anything. Course, I don't write anything NOW so its not like it would be a great big change!

I want to work out more cuz the gut, she is getting away from me. Literally and figuratively. I don't like the word gut but I think thats why I use it in this context, cuz aurally and visually, its not something that I like. I keep telling myself, once the snow is melted and the water has evaporated, Ill strap on the ol' blades and sashay my wheele'd feet towards a thinner, Adoi wearing, beach lounging, me! The Adoi is probably not how you spell the Vietnamese costume that I am going to have to wear for my wedding this summer. I can't remember being more excited about something since...well since last time I got married and went to Vietnam! I think Ill wear blue...

I have serious doubts about my ability to learn the language but its something that I want so badly to do. I don't understand how my (lack of) motivation seems to hamstring me so often. Do I really not want to do these things? Is it FEAR that keeps me from working hard to accomplish them? I really don't like to think of myself as one of those "Trying is the first step to failing" folks, but I can't think of another reasonable answer for why I don't start. Maybe thats a great goal for me...don't try to do everything that you want to do @ once but instead reward yourself for accomplishing anything for a period of time longer than normal. Work on small goals? Nah, fk it. Go big!

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im only doing this because i was talking to a friend of mine last night about my writing and how much I enjoyed it and was ashamed to admit how little I had done lately and how little I had ever done on here! So, basically this is a hopeful post. A post that will maybe say "look here, brain! Your fingers miss doing your bidding and the world needs yer ticky tack keyboard ticklings!" Least, I think they do and I know that I would be a much happier hippo if I did this more often. Not just this, but something w/more exposure and more sense...