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Em trai dang duoi con meo OR con meo dang tren em trai.

Two ways to say the same useless thing. One is "the boy is under the cat" and the other is "the can is on top of the boy" Don't ask me to add the accent marks cuz i can't. I might be able to pronounce these things so that an actual native Vietnamese speaker could understand me but it would be a stretch. And really, why would I ever want to say either of those things to a vietnamese person? I could say "chiec may bay mau vang" but there are not a lot of yellow airplanes around. I could say "Dang ngh con to" or "Dang tron con nah va do" but once i had commented on the fact the the house was big and the circle was small and red, the converstion would swiftly lapse. The long and the short of it is, Vietnamese is hard! The Rosetta stone is pretty cool and I feel like I am learning things but its a slow process and easy to get discouraged. Course, I feel like I am easily distracted by things that are hard...well, running and learning languages are really the only things that give me trouble lately. Also, I would like to plant a garden. Now you know! And by you, I mean the internet since I know that this is just a digital distraction for me. It does make me feel better than just looking @ pictures of kitties all day tho!

I really want to start making bread more (notice a theme here of the "i really want..." variety?) I don't need to make bread in the shape of crustations but crusty bread would be prefered. I am planning on starting to make some good pizza in the near future but, due to some serious recent failiaers, I feel like I need to practice a bit. Not really sure what I am going to do w/a ton of pizza dough...make bread w/it I suppose? My whole family is quite good @ baking w/my dads ma topping the pile. Of dough. *sigh* Its harder than I expected it to be but part of that might be that I refuse to use a recipe. Maybe if I started doing that, things would turn out better for me. Actually, now that I look @ that crab more, it might be fun to make some crab bread like that and stuff it w/crab! Yeah yeah! Anh and I boiled some crabs the other day and then spend 30 mintues picking them apart to make soup w/. They were delicious! I am really excited to go to VN and eat seafood for a few weeks tho...nothing here really compares.

Wow...that was a really boring post...

keep it coming!

Keep it going, keep it rocking! Should I maybe find something to mutter about or is it acceptable to just mutter about nothing? It might help my motivation to write more if I had a solid thing to comment on...or it might just annoy me and make me not want to write anything. Course, I don't write anything NOW so its not like it would be a great big change!

I want to work out more cuz the gut, she is getting away from me. Literally and figuratively. I don't like the word gut but I think thats why I use it in this context, cuz aurally and visually, its not something that I like. I keep telling myself, once the snow is melted and the water has evaporated, Ill strap on the ol' blades and sashay my wheele'd feet towards a thinner, Adoi wearing, beach lounging, me! The Adoi is probably not how you spell the Vietnamese costume that I am going to have to wear for my wedding this summer. I can't remember being more excited about something since...well since last time I got married and went to Vietnam! I think Ill wear blue...

I have serious doubts about my ability to learn the language but its something that I want so badly to do. I don't understand how my (lack of) motivation seems to hamstring me so often. Do I really not want to do these things? Is it FEAR that keeps me from working hard to accomplish them? I really don't like to think of myself as one of those "Trying is the first step to failing" folks, but I can't think of another reasonable answer for why I don't start. Maybe thats a great goal for me...don't try to do everything that you want to do @ once but instead reward yourself for accomplishing anything for a period of time longer than normal. Work on small goals? Nah, fk it. Go big!

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im only doing this because i was talking to a friend of mine last night about my writing and how much I enjoyed it and was ashamed to admit how little I had done lately and how little I had ever done on here! So, basically this is a hopeful post. A post that will maybe say "look here, brain! Your fingers miss doing your bidding and the world needs yer ticky tack keyboard ticklings!" Least, I think they do and I know that I would be a much happier hippo if I did this more often. Not just this, but something w/more exposure and more sense...